Showing posts with label AFFECTION. Show all posts
Showing posts with label AFFECTION. Show all posts

defeated by emotions..

lying down in my bed
with defeated feelings of my head
downs by a broken wings
a heart wrapped by tears

my soul's steals by emotions
a life tripped by the holes
a eyes blinded by cheats
and a mouth zipped by fears

i become despaired of all trials
with unfaithfulness of the best liars
turn my optimistic self to loses heads
with my sorrows that cannot hide itself

my heart's full of regrets
with every drop of my tears in bed
today i'm losing my way to heal
my smile loses its ability to conceal

i'm now defeated by my emotions
drifting away from the people i need
burn my self with this feeling!
and i don't know which way to go
stocked with this holes
without any rope to bring me up to home

defeated by emotions..


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Delicious is a Discovery! :P


Hi blogger friends! :)

I'm BACK!

oh my God! i'm so happy! hehe

Anyways...



I was so busy this past few months working at Greenwich. At first, I do not even think that I can do the task that they have given to me during our training. Maybe, there is a reason why God gave that job to me. Well, I think so! I have learned a lot and gained many valuable things at that company. Now, that I have to go back on school I have to drop the things that already attached my heart – GREENWICH.



"At GREENWICH every guest is a friend, and each visit is a time to discover, delight and bond!"

this is one of the things that i will never forget about Greenwich. Unlike the other fast food chain, at Greenwich every guest is a friend and they respect them as if they always right.. well, costumer is always right! yeah.. always right!

and don't forget to smile^^
its a key to success!

I also met a new friends and a new man i think! hehe but i don't wanna talk about that guy.. he's so irresistible and i wouldn't know what to do about him. sigh!*

all i can say is~ Greenwich added a new toppings in my life -- overloaded learning and happiness! :)




Waaah~ I LOVE GREENWICH!! I LOVE GREENWICH! I LOVE GREENWICH! I LOVE GREENWICH!! and i also MISS GREENWICH!!

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haay! hope i can go back to work after school, but my schedule is so conflict!
wooh~ 4 days before the class begin.. slow down please.. i'm not yet ready! haaay~ i'm not yet ready..



But i'm excited! hehe but still not yet ready :(

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*a message for my blogger friends*

Dear, blogger friends

from now on i promise that i would keep my blog alive! yeah!

and also promise to be updated in every post that you posted.hehe
i miss you all! especially ate SHERI and KAY..

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a piece of me game: FEBRUARY

this month..

i like: to earn more income.. i'm desperate to have my own business..

i don't like: seeing my love one (Glenn) at school.. it hurts me a lot since we broke up! (actually, were just cool off.. we have to give each other a space to know ourselves more)

i want you to know: that.. i'm too busy right now.. that's why i'm having a hard time to post regularly. but i'll try to update my blogs once a week^^

I want to say to someone special: I loved you bec. i love you.. I cared for you bec. i care for you.. i valued you bec. i value you.. i'll let you go bec. you want it to.. and i love you because YOU ARE THE MAIN SOURCE OF MY HAPPINESS.. and the MAIN CAUSE OF MY SADNESS.. but TRUE LOVE means GIVING YOUR BELOVED A SPACE TO BREATH.. and now I'M GIVING YOU A SPACE..

waaah~ February is a month of LOVE and AFFECTION!! have a nice valentines to all of you^^


status: SINGLE for this month of LOVE

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BEAUTY and POVERTY


I've took this picture in Villa Alfredos Resort, located at Baliti San.Fernando Pampanga.
It was an awesome day! after sharing LOL with my Badangs, I've took some photographs of green-things in Alfredos. (nakakabana kase daming bulaklak) i know myself, i have been always fond catching some beauty of nature like: flowers, trees, insects (butterfly), all things connected with green *i am also a green minded. lols..

is it wrong to entitled this as "BEAUTY?" or is it more wrong if i'll entitle this as "DESTRUCTION?" I love seeing flowers with destructive things like musca demostica (housefly,bubuyog este langaw).





some of my photographs at that day! :)

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And I also want to share this video. This is our first project in my subject "Introduction in Literature", a documentary film about the street children longing for new life. Try to watch it guys! (especially those Pinoys out there!)

Anyway i also have a new post here.. just Click~> Katotohanan sa Mundo ng Blog

Thanks!

happy weekends! much love! muah muah muah^^

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DEAR MOM (a poem of the unborn child)


title: Dear Mom (a poem of the unborn child)
by: edxaii^^

Dear Mom,

How do you feel right now?

I was there, inside your womb
for about 2 moths and 3 days
its my 3rd month when i'm gone
but its a life-time-sin you done!

I was there, hearing your voice
calling my name, touching my face
i was there, when you let that lady
pushing me out, cutting our lace

I was there, don't you hear me?
saying "mom don't do this to me!"
why don't you let me heal?
why does you did this deal?

My life belongs to you
expecting that i can walk out and play
getting in school and going home
but now you put out my flame

now your tears running in your face
you choose to let me die, now that i'm gone you cry
now i'm here inside this bottle, sorry is all you can say
an unborn child like me, i'm just a victim of this case

but if in case, we meet in heaven
i will tell you the words that you take away in me
mom, "i love you and i miss you.."
you will always be my mom and i am your son forever

even though you don't love me at all..

Love,
Baby Nylde


----- I wrote this poem to remind you how hurt to be killed by our own parents.
And to remind you how happy to have your own children.
Our child is the greatest gift that God can give to us.
They can be our purpose in life.

and i also wrote this poem to thank my mom for giving me a wonderful life that i have been experiencing right now, i thank her because even she is underage when i was inside of her womb, she still give me a chance to live, to laugh, and to love. i love you mom.. and i miss you so much. :(

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Last thing, Abortion is one of the problem that we can't control. It is illegal or banned to have an abortion here in Philippines. Under Articles 256, 258 and 259 of the Code mandate imprisonment for the woman who undergoes the abortion, as well as for any person who assists in the procedure, even if they be the woman's parents, a physician or midwife.
The woman who undergoes the abortion further impose in higher prison term.
Under this law, many of us still keep on doing this thing.

Daig pa ng mga ABORTIONISTA ang mga hired killer!
Ang mga hired killer pumapatay dahil may nagpapapatay, pero kadalasan yung mga pinapatay nila eh yung may mga atraso o kung hindi naman eh yung mga nakatikim na ng buhay dito sa mundo. Pero ang mga ABORTIONISTA, pumapatay sila ng mga batang walang kalaban laban. (Pero dibale, kung walang nagpapaabort walang abortionist pero kung walang abortionist wala rin naman mag papa-abort!)

For me, its not ethical to kill your own child for the sake of your dignity. In taking abortion you are just giving your self a life-long-pain and sin. If ever i'll get pregnant (pero sana huag naman..), i will never ever take the abortion as a solution. Rather, i'll fight for my child! If i had to choose between my family and my child, i rather choose my child.

Children is a gift of God. We should love them and take care of them. We don't have any rights to take their lives because we're not the one who give a life to them. Give them a chance to live and choose the life that they want to have.

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note: hi blogger friends! :) i miss you guys..
its been a week since my last post posted, am i right? hehe

have a nice day guys! i love you all.. muah muah muah :)

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GROW OLD WITH YOU (tagalog version) lyrics and the wedding singer "grow old with you scene"


KASAMA KANG TUMANDA

itong awiting ito
ay alay sayo
sintonado man tong mga pangako sayo
ang gusto ko lamang
makasama kang tumanda

patatawanin kita pag hindi ka masaya
bubuhatin kita pag rinayuma ka na
oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda

ibibili ng balot pag mahina na ang tuhod
ikukuha ng gamot pag sumakit ang likod
oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda

sasamahan kahit kailan man
mahigit kumulang ‘di mabilang
tatlumpung araw sa isang buwan
umabot man tayo sa three-thousand one

magmukha mang bruha pag gising sa umaga
pupunasan ko pa ang muta mo sa mata
oh kay sarap isipin kasama kang tumanda

paglalaba pa kita
matapos mamalantsya
kahit abut-abutin man ako ng pasma
oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda

sasamahan kahit kailan man
mahigit kumulang ‘di mabilang
tatlumput araw sa isang buwan
umabot man tayo sa three-thousand one

labs na labs parin kita
kahit bungi-bungi ka na
para sakin ikaw parin ang pinaka maganda
oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda

at nangangako sayo’ng
pag sinagot mo’ng oo
iaalay sayo buong puso ko
sumangayon ka lamang
kasama kang tumanda

-- this song is taken in the movie "MY ONLY U!"
starring Toni Gonzaga and Vhong Navarro.


GROW OLD WITH YOU lyrics

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you


-- The original song "GROW OLD WITH YOU"
was taken in the movie..

"the wedding singer"

there is one scene in the movie that
Adam Sandler wrote this song and dedicate this to Drew Barrymore
inside the airplane going to Las Vegas, in front of many passengers.
To stop the wedding of Drew Barrymore to her fiance Glenn.

here is the scene :)




i am so much in love with this song!! :)
hope someday someone will also surprise me
like Adam Sandler did..
not my boyfriend because he is not sweet ever since..
CORNY daw yung ganun.. huhu
anyway.. I also love ADAM!! he is so CUTE! XD

am i right? right? :)


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you should also owned one..

A group of friends is one of the basic groups of society. The man won’t live without society and the society won’t live without a man. Just like us, we won’t live without friends and also them, they won’t live without us. Even though we have different perspectives about Friendship, and we define it in different ways. To form a good friendship you must know these 3 things: ACCEPTANCE, TRUST, and LOYALTY.

You must accept all the things about them, trust everything and returned it to being loyal. This means that no matter what happen, you must accept the things they have done to you; you must know how to give and forgive, share your time and advices, and you must be a good influence to them.

If ever there’s what you call “MISTAKE” between you and one of your friend, you must know how to accept their apologize and if ever you are the one who have been done that mistake, you must set aside your pride and build again a good relations. You must trust them for keeping your secrets and they also do the same thing.

When you are sad, friends are one of the best shoulders to cry on. Friends are one of the best gift that God given to us. You won’t call it FRIENDS if both of you are not loyal at the same time. You must be a trust worthy person. So you must love, do a favor, do the same thing, accept each other, trust each other and be loyal to each other.

Be a nice FRIEND and you can also owned the same. :)


-- I do this assignment for one of Christal's friend. I don't know that person but I did this.. haha it is a good practice to me as a future writer. weeehh.. :P


today status: YE!!! ang sweet ni boyfriend kanina.. :) haha HAPPY?? exactly! :)

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so much nervous..

At this moment I was sitting in front of the house of Tita Lhou. While typing this, I am so nervous about my best friend JENN (my bhesxie). She still not at home and her parents keep texting her and call her but still NO RESPONSE. I try to call her and I did! She said that She still with her new boyfriend "MIGUEL".. in this time?? it's already 10:19 and every one are worrying about her including ME. She said she will going to sleep at my house. HOPE SO! Coz I don't know what to do to her. I still keep on texting her. I am praying that she's at a good hand. Hayy~bhexsie..


FINALLY! papunta na daw..



tonight status: bhexsie uwi.. :(

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a childhood sweet heart..


My MR.RAYT List... <3>
from him.. don't know the exact date..


2nd year time..
kung anu anung pinag susulat nia jan.. nag aasaran kame^^


His last letter before we broke up..


I treasure every single things about him..
even this piece of candy and paper..


I also draw him..
I already gave the exact drawing to him after we broke up..
this is only the photo copy of my drawing..


Valentines card (feb. 2006)..




JS PROM^^


I still kept all this stuff on my room.. not because I still want him but because I treasure all the memorize that we have been enjoy.

This time, I don't have any news about him..
Anyway.. MR. + RAY(mark) + T..
= Mr. Rayt^^

that's why.. Mr.rayt..

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old but still funny when you read it..

BOY: Hayop ka! ginawa mu akong tau-tauhan
sa sakahan! Pero sahod ko hindi umakyat!
kung mamamatay ako, sinung mag papakain
ng pamilya ko? IKAW???!!



AMO: inglisin mu para taasan ko sahod mu!



BOY: animal you! person-person me in your farm,
my salary did not climb! If i die,
who will eat my family? YOU??!!



haha.. I received this message a while ago, and it makes me laugh! aha lol.
it is an old funny joke but still it makes me smile^^



nangangati tuloy puetsx qoh.. haha

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a accidentally conversation :D

-- It's not supposed to happen but it does, a accidentally conversation between me and Dexter. At this time I was chatting with him on facebook. I remember the last time that I have chat with him. I said that "kalimutan mo na ko.. hindi na kita mahal" then He said.. "ok. kakamustahin nalang kita pag may girlfriend nako" and it's happen today, here is our conversation.

dexter: musta?
edlyn: aus lang. kaw?
dexter: e2 aus parin, musta pag aaral?
edlyn: hhmm.. medyo di ok. kaw musta pag aaral?
dexter: haay naku,,bkit n2man? e2 ok lang
edlyn: hhaaha.. wala nman.. uag mu nang intindihin.. :D:D
dexter: ganun?? hayyy bakit anu ba nangyari?
edlyn: opo.. amm..wala ksi baka ibagsak aku nung prof. ko..
dexter: bakit nman?
edlyn: ewan ku dun.. ok naman mga quizes ko. :(:(
dexter: hmmm parang nag babago na ata ugali mo?
edlyn: hindi nuh.. ako parin toh.. kita ko pala mga pics moh..
dexter: buti nman,,musta si glenn?
edlyn: aus lang naman..
dexter: hmmm kau parin?
edlyn: oo..
dexter: nga pala, may gf na pala ko..
edlyn: mabuti naman.. masaya ko para sayo.
dexter: talaga?
edlyn: atlist seryoso kana ngayon.. en di kana malulungkot nian :D:D
dexter: oo nga,,, kaw ba seryoso kai glenn?
edlyn: ou naman.. nagtanda narin ako nuh.
dexter: tlga??
edlyn: ou..
dexter: dapat lang..
edlyn: dapat lang talaga.. galing pala kong malino kanina..
dexter: anu ginawa mo?
edlyn: sinamahan ko lolo kong hanapin yung asawa nia.. nag break eh..
dexter: ahh ganun ba,,,magkabalikan na sana sila
PANU malalaman ung pera sa facebook?
yung oambili ng petsa friend
edlyn: sana nga... kaso ayaw na nung lola ko eh.. kung kelan tumanda, dun pa nag inarte ang loka.. haha
dexter: ahhh buti d kpa na22log?
edlyn: amm.. click mo yung FRIENDS FOR SALE na nasa application moh.. pag andun kana click mo yung HOME. nag bablog kase ko eh..
dexter: ahhh may bago ka ata blog?
edlyn: amm.. ou.. yung isa about kay god..
dexter: yung isa? relog lang ako
edlyn: amm.. about sa studies ko.. geh relog lang...

-- that's it! :D I'm so happy na may gf na sya. Hope naka move on na talaga sya.. now, I dont know if i need to tell this to glenn or what. May pagka seloso kase yun eh. baka kung anung isipin nya. haayy~ pero dapat! :D being HONEST is still the key to a good relationship. kaya tomorrow.. sasabihin ko .. hhaha

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day 1 na.. :/


DAY 1: "anu na kaya ginagawa nila? kumain na kaya yun?"

3 days and 2 nights sila mag you-youth camp. amfufu.. nakakaingets! kainis.. huhu.. sana manlang nakasama kame ni Pat. haaay~ Sayang talaga! libre lang pamo yun. The prob. is my mom won't allow me.. lalu na pag nalaman nyang kasama si Dex sa youth camp. Iniisip ko talaga kung anu nang ginagawa nila nyan dun. Naku! baka mamaya may nilalapitan na yung iba! hayyy.. utak ko! amfufu talaga! Wala sana syang magustuhang ibang girls dun. Naku!! huhu. amfufu!! haha.. utak ne??

And sa tutuo lang naiingets talaga ko.. buti pa sila. Kung pwede lang talaga ko. Sana hindi sya mag kwento ng mag kwento after nila dun. Naku! di ko naman sasagutin tawag niya nuh.. kung sakali man! sabay ganun eh nuh?? haha..

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songs in my heart..


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com



5 songs!

1. like only a woman can - bryan mcfadden

lyrics:

I wasn’t perfect
I’ve done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn’t looking for forgiveness
Wasn’t laid out by my pride
Shocked by her attention
And someone signed me up for love
I didn’t want it
And now I can’t live without it

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

She’s kind of perfect
She’s kind of everything I’m not
Yeah, she’s an angel
And it’s amazing how she’s patient
Even more at times I’m not
She’s my conscience
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

Oh, and she changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can
Like only a woman can
Like only a woman
Like only a woman can



-- i heard this song at myx nung araw na nahuli ako ni tita
lhou sa house nila Dexter.. actually nakita niya kong
nakasakay sa jeep nun, then sinundan daw niya ko.
(May 15, 2009) last day na nakasama namin ang isa't isa.

Nag biro pamo ko sakanya nun..

"hanapin mu muna yung nail cutter ko kundi last day ko nang pag punta toh! cge ka.."

"amfufu moh!" he said na pabiro.


-- i never thought that it would be the last. Words are so powerful nga!
amfufu.. nagbibiro lang naman ako nung time na yun eh. ngayun, nagkatutuo na nga.. :(

-- You know what? i missing him every time i heard this song.
Pati nga yung lyrics tugma samen. He always said that "i am the only one who changed his life, who changed him, who cleaned him up and who found his heart", and i know its true, actually he found me too.
[imisshimsomuch!]




2. tulog na - sugarfree

lyrics:

Tulog na mahal ko
Hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito
Lika na, tulog na tayo.
Tulog na mahal ko
Wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama
Saka na mamroblema

Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
Mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
Kung matulog, matulog ka na…

Tulog na mahal ko
Nandito lang akong bahala sa iyo
Sige na, tulog na muna
Tulog na mahal ko
At baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas
At sabay natin haharapin ang mundo

Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
Mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
Kung matulog, matulog ka na…



-- Since everyone's against about him and it seems no ones like him. I quietly feel like I'm "giving up!". He knows my weaknesses and he don't want me to give up. Hanggat maaare, gusto niya lagi akong matatag para sa relasyon namen.

Then one time, He sing that song for me.

"kaya ikaw itulog mu nalang yan.. malay mu bukas legal na tayu.." a kind of joke but real.. haha



3. back in time - kyla and jr

lyrics:

Jay R:
How have you been
The last time I saw you
We graduated high school
I think it’s been about 2 years since then

Kyla:
I’ve been okay
Nothing much has changed
Still doing the same old thing

Jay R:
May I take a little bit of your time

Kyla:
No, I don’t think that would be possible

Jay R:
Why do you have a boyfriend

Kyla:
No, I broke it off 2 months ago

Jay R:
Well, if you don’t mind
I’d like to get your number
And maybe reminisce together
Is that alright?

Kyla:
I don’t mind
Would love to get together
In fact tonight I’d rather
Go back in time

Chorus:
Go back into time now rewind
Back in the day
When nothing really mattered
Just let go let me take control
Just follow the signs
Let’s go back in time
Let’s go back in time
Let’s go back in time

Jay R:
Now here we are
Tell me everything about you
Where you do the things that you do
The things you like whatever is on your mind

Kyla:
I just bought a house
Been a half way round the world
Still not your ordinary girl

Jay R:
I’ve always have had a little crush on you

Kyla:
I can’t believe you felt that way too

Jay R:
And after all this time I still think I do

Kyla:
Boy for now just take me where I want to go

Repeat Chorus 2x


-- My favorite cousin (Patrick) really like this song. That's why i like it too na ren, para same kame. haha



4. you can - david archuleta

-- He dedicate this song for me, when our relationship just started to bloom..
here's the lyrics:

Mmmmm
Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come to those who wait
Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see
Are these the eyes of someone you could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, now it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself, it's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come to those who wait



-- thats it! :)



5. 1234 - plain white t's

lyrics:

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you



-- i dedicate this song for him. bago pa nya maisipan idedicate yung "YOU CAN" saken. haha. It only mean one thing "he's gaya gaya!" haha.. joke. :]

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