This Christmas eve is more different from my previous Christmas.
Before, I have spend my Christmas with my Lolo and Lola, Tita and Tito, Insan and kapatid.. We're always completed. Actually, I did'nt experience celebrating my Christmas without them, even my mom
"umuuwi talaga sya samen, para lang mag Christmas" and all of our
"kapit bahay" neighborhood keep on telling that.. our family are the most happiest group who spend their Christmas together.
We don't just celebrate our "Noche Buena" by eating our
handa together. We spend our time by giving gifts and
aguinaldo from our relatives. We also have pa-games;
pinoy henyo, trip to Jerusalem, Bring me, egg games and etc.But the second half of 2009, we had experienced a very conflict situation between my mom and my lolo and lola.. They argued about money. that's why this year, i am missing our past Christmas and new year's eve.. :-(
my mom and my dad was separated since i graduated in grade school.
Last Christmas, my two siblings and i celebrates our Christmas together with my dad in the morning.. then in the evening at my lola's house
naman..But this Christmas..
i'm alone!!
my lolo and lola, and also my two siblings and uncle are not with us.. :((
my lolo and lola?? ~ they owned a strong pride!! they still can't admit that its all their fault not us.. they still keep on leaving with us..
lumalayo sila samen.. :(
my uncle? ~ my mom and him also having a misunderstanding.. they still keep on fighting.. not literally fight ah.. they also own PRIDE!!
my two siblings? ~ they spend their Christmas in BULACAN (my papa's province..)
Anyway.. my friends and i spend our Christmas party successfully! yehey!! but we're not complete.. so its not really successful. hehe probably we're 6 in a group.
we set up my cam so that we captured together.. :)
we also have our kris kringle.. bunutan.. worth 20php.. haha
this cute pink ballpen are from my badang tal^^
and this is my mini gift.. :) a one piece of pin and nail cutter.. haha
this one is from yvi.. :)
ahaha.. at waiting shed.. :)
i edited this picture.. just for fun^^
"tomorrow the cow will nail-down too"
"the sadness of MARISESA"
"The fat of the past" haha :)
the rest of the pictures are also edited.. :)
with captions.. :P
THE END :)
today status:
can't think right.. haay~
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MY COLLEGE LIFE,
MY CONFESSION
- I was on trip yesterday, I am holding a pen then I wrote L-O-V-E in: flowers, leafs, rock, wall, a piece of straw, empty bottle, and in a empty container i think. :]
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addiction,
HEART OF MINE,
LIST of THINGS,
MY CONFESSION
Making decisions in our life is not easy, especially at the teenage years. There are so many obstacles around you. So many influences will always stick on you; it’s either good or bad. It's your choice if you will do your best or do the worst.
Like the other... I also have my own decisions.
- GOD
- LOVE
- FUTURE
this three things are the most important things for me. I always find myself looking at the window, thinking about my life. Then, I woke up this morning and the first thing comes on my mind is that... "What should I do for tomorrow, for another day and for the rest of my life?" Do I really need to stock up myself to the things that happening now?
I really love GOD... He is the center of my life. Without him, I am nothing. This pass few days, I forgot to consult my personal problem to him. I forgot that God always on my side. I forgot that he just waiting for me to tell all the truth. I forgot that no matter happen the one who I really need is GOD. I forgot it… and I hate myself for that.
For now on:
- Before I do some choices or decision... I need God's permission.
LOVE is one of the things important to me, particularly my FAMILY, FRIENDS, and LOVE ONE. Because of some mistake I've been done. I lost the trust of some important family member of me, especially my mom. I also lost the trust of the person who I used to love before (but it’s not mean that I don’t love him anymore. It’s not that, okay?) Because of my mistake I need to give up something.
I decided to..
- Obey my mom. (Even if, she never say anything, I know she want me to evade something.)
- Avoid them (Glenn and Dexter) hope they'll understand my decision. It's not easy for me to do this, But I need eh.. so sorry nalang talaga..
- Study hard is still the key to success! so study hard nalang edz! fight! fight! hihi..
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MY CONFESSION
we already got this house at xevera subdivision
located at calibutbut bacolor pampanga philippines. hihi..
its for rent.. we rent this just for this coming school year..
(only i and my two brothers who will live here)
We need to be independent as ourselves.
And Its a big challenge for me as the eldest sister
to take care of my two brothers who are both
makulets..hope, they will respect me as the eldest sister of them.
I already done packing my things.
4 days before we leave this house I feel
that there's a "pain inside of me" there's a "regret".
i will miss this living room
the sketch of my grand mother and this 7 horses.
this messy entertainment area
that broken door nab of our toilet (
gawa ni lolo)
and that messy table..
I will miss all messy things here in our house.
Excited
na nga kong lumipat sa xevera but I don't wanna leave my lola alone with my lolo..
I will miss everything, our living room, our toilet, laundry area (
kung san ako naglalaba).
Everything! especially my "mommy" (my lola, we used to call her mommy). I will miss her sermon, her sigaw, iyak, kadramahan nya and expecially her luto. I will miss everything about her.. oh i can't stop crying everytime i think of her. I feel sorry for every bad things that i done to her.
Sana mabasa niya yung letter ko para sakanya. i will miss her so much..
front of our house.. :)
i will miss you.. huhuhuhu
i will miss our old sari-sari store (
tambayan sa hapon)
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MY CONFESSION
This Christmas eve is more different from my previous Christmas.
Anyway.. my friends and i spend our Christmas party successfully! yehey!! but we're not complete.. so its not really successful. hehe probably we're 6 in a group.
we also have our kris kringle.. bunutan.. worth 20php.. haha
"The fat of the past" haha :)
