lying down in my bed with defeated feelings of my head downs by a broken wings a heart wrapped by tears
my soul's steals by emotions a life tripped by the holes a eyes blinded by cheats and a mouth zipped by fears
i become despaired of all trials with unfaithfulness of the best liars turn my optimistic self to loses heads with my sorrows that cannot hide itself
my heart's full of regrets with every drop of my tears in bed today i'm losing my way to heal my smile loses its ability to conceal
i'm now defeated by my emotions drifting away from the people i need burn my self with this feeling! and i don't know which way to go stocked with this holes without any rope to bring me up to home
tomorrow is the day! yeah! first day of class! i'm so excited to see my old classmates and also those freshmen and shifters! :) hope dumami na ang Mass Communication student as well as the whole CASED in Holy Angel University.
Actually, Last semester we were so few and often time some of the freshmen student shifted their course in other department. Hope this semester, will increase the no. of the CASED (College of Art, Science and Education) students.
BTW, we also have a new building! yehey! :) bongga! XD
tomorrow, after my class i will take a picture of SJH building which is our new building for you to see it. :) but actually, its for CASED and CICT students. hating kapatid na naman!
I was so busy this past few months working at Greenwich. At first, I do not even think that I can do the task that they have given to me during our training. Maybe, there is a reason why God gave that job to me. Well, I think so! I have learned a lot and gained many valuable things at that company. Now, that I have to go back on school I have to drop the things that already attached my heart – GREENWICH.
"At GREENWICH every guest is a friend, and each visit is a time to discover, delight and bond!"
this is one of the things that i will never forget about Greenwich. Unlike the other fast food chain, at Greenwich every guest is a friend and they respect them as if they always right.. well, costumer is always right! yeah.. always right!
and don't forget to smile^^
its a key to success!
I also met a new friends and a new man i think! hehe but i don't wanna talk about that guy.. he's so irresistible and i wouldn't know what to do about him. sigh!*
all i can say is~ Greenwich added a new toppings in my life -- overloaded learning and happiness! :)
Waaah~ I LOVE GREENWICH!! I LOVE GREENWICH! I LOVE GREENWICH! I LOVE GREENWICH!! and i also MISS GREENWICH!!
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haay! hope i can go back to work after school, but my schedule is so conflict!
wooh~ 4 days before the class begin.. slow down please.. i'm not yet ready! haaay~ i'm not yet ready..
from now on i promise that i would keep my blog alive! yeah!
and also promise to be updated in every post that you posted.hehe
i miss you all! especially ate SHERI and KAY..
this month of MARCH.. since we have been discussed "THE Phenomenology of DEATH" in my Philosophy class..
i like: hmmm.. i don't really like this idea.. I intend to have my monthly "last will and testament" in order to reach my perfection if ever i'll die today or tomorrow. Moreover, i'll start this month of march.. since we don't know where, how and when we'll going to die, i can say all the things i wanna say to those people i cared most and for those people i loved most. Assuming that i'll die this day, at least i can share my last will and testament to all my companions here in earth..
i don't like: doing this stupid idea! haha but i will! XD
i want you to know: that i had now my "LUCKY CHARM" goodluck to me! hehe
I want to say to someone special: i love you tita Lhou.. THANKS for all the things that you have done for us.. i love you and thank you^^
An innocent child used to ask a unanswerable questions like "dad where did i come from?", the parents wont say "you come from your mother's womb" then a child would ask another question "how did i come from my mother's womb?" and a dad won't answer it "because your mom and i had sex and the sperms of mine meet the egg cells of your mom", it is awkward and inappropriate to a parents to talk about sex with their children, especially at the younger age around 5 years old.
The documentary of Howie Severino’s “Papa, Papa, Paano ako ginawa?” is one of the best documentary films of "iwitness" of GMA7. The documentary shows some fact about the family livelihood.
The family would not be called as family if there were no Father or mother to act as the guider of their children. The family plays an important role and has special responsibility in the socialization of a child. In this documentary, Howie Severino shows the ignorant mind of a child regards sex, making, or building a family. However, some of them are open-minded about sex but most of them are not.
The human infant is born helpless and without a sense of self and the parents is the one who should fulfill the needs of infant. Around 3 years old the child starting asking or realizing about his/her gender. They started playing games that fitted their gender and the peer group replaced the role of the family’s role in socialization, as the child grows older.
In documentary, Alon has a peer group composed of more boys and fewer girls, but now Alon do not want to play anymore with girls. Howie does not have any idea where his son gets some of his attitude. It is because the peer group replaces their role.
After the peer group, Being on school is one of the helpful stage of a child development. School is a formal agency for weaning children from home and introducing them into the society. Children learn the history, geography and politics of their country and are socialize into the norms, beliefs, values, and customs of the larger society. The schools are responsible for inculcating knowledge and skills that prepare them for adulthood and become productive and effective citizens of the country.
In documentary shows some learning institution, the community of learning is a school that teaches some sensitive topic to their class. Feny Delos Angeles-Bautista is co-founder of the community of learners and she is professional in a field of child development. She talks frankly about sex to the children. According to her, the parents should start answering the right answer whenever their children ask them about sensitive topic like when, where, how they become a human. She encourages the parents to be open to the children to feel; it is okay to ask, it is okay to show, and it is okay to “usisa”. However, in our society, it is still awkward to other to talk about sex.
Moreover, In our society now a day, it is normal to hear if the young teenager is pregnant. In Malabon Philippines, there is particular place called “Paradise” that many teenagers are pregnant. Some child is still ignorant regards sex. Some parents believe that it is not right to talk about sex inside the house and the school is responsible to teach their pupils about reproductive system. According to Aling Lina (a kagawad and health worker in Paradise), it is not only the young pregnant she often see. Monthly, it is not less than ten teenagers had STD or tulo. Both male and female can have STD but females are afraid to consult about their STD.
In Malabon Philippines, they call their prostitute as “Babaeng Tanod”. This shows the Filipino values of uplifting one’s state in life. This can be considered as a positive value, but if she “sells” her body so that she could earn double and thereby sacrificing her morality, then the original value is lost.
Aling Lina gives advice to some teenager about their private life. She also teaches some teenager about contraceptives like using condoms. She is using a model of male sex organ and she shows how to use the condom. It is more advisable to teach with a model of male sex organ. There are some instances before they just show it using the finger, then some couple thought that it is for fingers not for the male sex organ. However, some sectors do not approve the use of contraceptives like condom. Nevertheless, the number of young pregnancy and STD are both increasing.
Some other individual does not know how they get pregnant. Kiko and Aling Lina both the same in their goal to teach and to open the eyes of some children particularly the teenager regards sex. In documentary of Howie Severino, shows the discussions about sex and contraceptives. They show some symptoms of STD by using pictures. Then they teach the proper way in using the condoms. If ever the child cannot control their feelings, they can use condoms to prevent diseases (STD) and to prevent the earlier pregnancy.
Moreover, there are social conflicts between churches and some individuals if it is right to teach in a school regards sex. The churches believe that it is not right to teach it in a public, the parents are the one who is responsible about this thing. However, some individual like Feny and Kiko believes that it is okay to teach it in a public like school. So we cannot control the conflicts regarding this matter.
The RH Bill no. 5043 was passed, this Act shall be known as the “Reproductive Health and Population Development Act of 2008“.The State upholds and promotes responsible parenthood, informed choice, birth spacing and respect for life in conformity with internationally recognized human rights standards. If you still remember, at the year 2008 this act was pass and some schools starting teaches about family planning. However, the churches disapprove this act. According to Atty. Jo Imbong (attorney of CBCP), this act is a child abuse in a highest order. Nevertheless, not all priests are disapproving about this act. According to Fr. Eric Genilo, this act is a part of information of the conscience of people and if it done right, done properly, according to respectful religious tradition of a person being thought then it is something to a human development and be able to make a decision. This issue creates a social conflict between churches and some individuals until now. According to Kiko, It is hard to have a big number of families that you do not ever have plan.
According to Howie Severino’s documentary, those who pregnant in a early year, those who have STD and other diseases, those young people who sex without protection did not reach the right information and enough service. For others it is not yet late but they just few.
Even there is no law; there are still the last people to lean on. They are the first one you leaned and still the last one you can lean on. They are your parents and they always ready for you. In all agency of socialization, the family is still the best developer of a one individual, which is one of the reasons why Filipino people value so much their family. They are family oriented.
i like: to earn more income.. i'm desperate to have my own business..
i don't like: seeing my love one (Glenn) at school.. it hurts me a lot since we broke up! (actually, were just cool off.. we have to give each other a space to know ourselves more)
i want you to know: that.. i'm too busy right now.. that's why i'm having a hard time to post regularly. but i'll try to update my blogs once a week^^
I want to say to someone special: I loved you bec. i love you.. I cared for you bec. i care for you.. i valued you bec. i value you.. i'll let you go bec. you want it to.. and i love you because YOU ARE THE MAIN SOURCE OF MY HAPPINESS.. and the MAIN CAUSE OF MY SADNESS.. but TRUE LOVE means GIVING YOUR BELOVED A SPACE TO BREATH.. and now I'M GIVING YOU A SPACE..
waaah~ February is a month of LOVE and AFFECTION!! have a nice valentines to all of you^^
I've took this picture in Villa Alfredos Resort, located at Baliti San.Fernando Pampanga.
It was an awesome day! after sharing LOL with my Badangs, I've took some photographs of green-things in Alfredos. (nakakabana kase daming bulaklak) i know myself, i have been always fond catching some beauty of nature like: flowers, trees, insects (butterfly), all things connected with green *i am also a green minded. lols..
is it wrong to entitled this as "BEAUTY?" or is it more wrong if i'll entitle this as "DESTRUCTION?" I love seeing flowers with destructive things like musca demostica (housefly,bubuyog este langaw).
And I also want to share this video. This is our first project in my subject "Introduction in Literature", a documentary film about the street children longing for new life. Try to watch it guys! (especially those Pinoys out there!)
title: Dear Mom (a poem of the unborn child) by: edxaii^^
Dear Mom,
How do you feel right now?
I was there, inside your womb for about 2 moths and 3 days its my 3rd month when i'm gone but its a life-time-sin you done!
I was there, hearing your voice calling my name, touching my face i was there, when you let that lady pushing me out, cutting our lace
I was there, don't you hear me? saying "mom don't do this to me!" why don't you let me heal? why does you did this deal?
My life belongs to you expecting that i can walk out and play getting in school and going home but now you put out my flame
now your tears running in your face you choose to let me die, now that i'm gone you cry now i'm here inside this bottle, sorry is all you can say an unborn child like me, i'm just a victim of this case
but if in case, we meet in heaven i will tell you the words that you take away in me mom, "i love you and i miss you.." you will always be my mom and i am your son forever
even though you don't love me at all..
Love, Baby Nylde
----- I wrote this poem to remind you how hurt to be killed by our own parents. And to remind you how happy to have your own children. Our child is the greatest gift that God can give to us. They can be our purpose in life.
and i also wrote this poem to thank my mom for giving me a wonderful life that i have been experiencing right now, i thank her because even she is underage when i was inside of her womb, she still give me a chance to live, to laugh, and to love. i love you mom.. and i miss you so much. :(
Last thing, Abortion is one of the problem that we can't control. It is illegal or banned to have an abortion here in Philippines. Under Articles 256, 258 and 259 of the Code mandate imprisonment for the woman who undergoes the abortion, as well as for any person who assists in the procedure, even if they be the woman's parents, a physician or midwife. The woman who undergoes the abortion further impose in higher prison term. Under this law, many of us still keep on doing this thing.
Daig pa ng mga ABORTIONISTA ang mga hired killer! Ang mga hired killer pumapatay dahil may nagpapapatay, pero kadalasan yung mga pinapatay nila eh yung may mga atraso o kung hindi naman eh yung mga nakatikim na ng buhay dito sa mundo. Pero ang mga ABORTIONISTA, pumapatay sila ng mga batang walang kalaban laban. (Pero dibale, kung walang nagpapaabort walang abortionist pero kung walang abortionist wala rin naman mag papa-abort!)
For me, its not ethical to kill your own child for the sake of your dignity. In taking abortion you are just giving your self a life-long-pain and sin. If ever i'll get pregnant (pero sana huag naman..), i will never ever take the abortion as a solution. Rather, i'll fight for my child! If i had to choose between my family and my child, i rather choose my child.
Children is a gift of God. We should love them and take care of them. We don't have any rights to take their lives because we're not the one who give a life to them. Give them a chance to live and choose the life that they want to have.
Its already 4:58am but i'm still awake. My class start 7:00 in the morning. haay~ bangag na naman nian..
anyway.. the drawing from the top is actually my work^^ yeah! i did that! haha
Since i did not sleep.. a childhood memory flashback in my head. I had a funny story from the past yet it was a painful lesson to me.
When I was 6 years old, every weekends.. me and my "yagits friends" (childhood friends) always have a MI (mission impossible). There's one thing that make our day completed, guess what it is?
hunting a HONEY BEE!! yeah~
there was a day that me and my childhood friends seated upon the flapform of our barangay with our bubuyog (bee). However, my bubuyog escaped from the bottle. Since i'm quite boastful at that time, i wanna prove that i can catch it right away. Moreover, what i did is, i did catch it using my hand! all my friends was amazed, they clapping their hand. I was so proud naman! haha
nevertheless, they did not know that my hand getting huge! waah~ i know that the teeth of the bee did that! huhu then i've started to cry.
"hindi-naman-masaket-eh!".. "umiiyak-na-sya-ahhh~".. "hindi-naman-ako-umiiyak-eh~huhu~".. "iyakin-iyakin~".. "susumbong-ko-kayo-sa-papa-ko~huhuhu~".. haha that's was a funny scene, every time it flashed back.. i can't stop but i always lol. haha
Before, i believe that the essence of honey bee is to sweeten the honey. But then, i realized that the real essence of honeybee is to make me realized that "in order to get something, we have to give more effort to it". sometimes, there's a certain thing that we cannot get in just one click! we have to give more effort to pursue it! or else we should face the sequences.. We have to be more patient, coz nothing is easy but yes! nothing is hard also. But we have to give more effort! give our best! :)
Btw... this picture was taken when i was 6months old. i am so cute right? grrr~ hehe I will miss her~ actually, i missing her na.. :( i had to be more mature now na umalis na naman sya, so makakapagwala na naman ako nian! haha~ congrats me! lol.
Since, i did not sleep.. i am late in my first subject! Philosophy of man! one of my favorite subject.. huhu Mr.Punctually did not allow me to enter the room, im just late for about a couple of minute.. 2mins. to be exact! haay~ i hate him!
Btw.. i've met "Lisel" she's also late.. there's a few things we talked about^^ she also like the course MASS COMM but her mom did not allowed her to take it. rather, her mom forced her to take the course Information Technology or simply called IT.. well, she is also a fan of photography. She like taking a photo.. :) waah~ i met so many people fond of photography. weeh~bungga! haha
note: hello blogger friends! is it my new templates is cute or not? or should i have to bring back my old templates? waah~ help me! i don't know what to do! huhu
btw.. have a nice day to all! keep on rocking!! yeah! haha
i'll comment back after a school.. LOVE YOU ALL! muah muah muha :)
Flickr Photostream of benoist try to visit his flickr page^^
anyway.. this "lucky chinese tag: eminent eight" is from DEV actually.. i'm not really tagged in this Eminent Eight.
I just read the post and at the end of it there's the last note from DEV
here is the note: I know I have missed out on a lot of people and now am having second thoughts ..about tagging people..so I request anyone who reads the post is tagged and its obligatory for him/her to answer this tag..
Since i love good lucks and lucky charm.. i like this tag! i like grabbing it! yeah! lol. :P
i will start answering now, good luck to me, hope i can done this for a short time.. haha
*8 TV SHOWS I LIKE TO WATCH: 1. iWITNESS 2. Peporters NoteBook 3. NGC: Monkey Thieves 4. Crime Investigation 5. MC: Mellow Myx 6. HBO movies 7. STAR Cinema 8. Shining Inheritance
*8 FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT AND DRINK:
1. my ROOM^^ - so that i can eat alone.. walang istorbo! lol. 2. PARK - i can seat and relax 3. KUSINA - kitchen room: i love the "lutong bahay" dishes 4. CARINDERIA - filipino eatery: i love Filipino foods so much! it makes me feel the essence of being real PINOY 5. inside the JEEPNEY - i love eating inside the jeep while traveling, i can smell the fresh air outside the window and also the aroma of what am i eating (whatever it is!) 6. Cottage - tambayan with friends^^ 7. Red Ribbon! - their CAKES flavors are really cool! hmmm~saraps.. 8. Jolibee - Child's favorite fast food chain :)
*8 THINGS I LOOK FORWARD TOO: 1. having my own business 2. Dean lister? lol 3. BLOG updates 4. holidays and fun 5. visits my LOLO and LOLA 6. taking some voice lesson 7. friends reunion 8. traveling with Glenn
*8 THINGS HAPPENED YESTERDAY: 1. My mom's birthday celebration 2. no class on my first subject 3. i had so much fun with my GENSOC subject, i like the topic! yeah! 4. Reporting in FILBAS subject with just a few listeners. haha good for me^^ 5. i saw my ex with his group of friends 6. BAD TRIP on my last subject 7. i meet my old high school classmate, we've talked about the past high school life 8. i had so much fun with Glenn, so much happy^^
*8 THINGS I LOVE ABOUT WINTER: 1. winter means giving HUG 2. the hot soup to warm us 3. electric saver 4. the fog in the morning 5. sleeping season! yeah! 6. i can wear my favorite clothes 7. sharing blanket and jackets 8. bring my umbrella
*8 THINGS ON MY WISH-LIST: 1. a bunchy MONKEY stuff 2. lost my weight 3. own a 5'2 height 4. learn to sing 5. business 6. vacation 7. new cellphone 8. new iPOD
*8 THINGS "AM PASSIONATE ABOUT" 1. MONKEY 2. MARSHMALLOW 3. VANILLA 4. SHAWARMA 5. SANSRIVAL 6. FRENCH FRIES 7. HAM BURGER 8. ICE CREAM! yeah!
*8 WORDS/PHRASE I OFTEN USE: 1. I LOVE YOU 2. I MISS YOU 3. its okay! 4. Whatever 5. Yup 6. Amfufu 7. such a loser! 8. ingats (take care)
*8 THINGS I LEARN FROM THE PAST: 1. always put God first! 2. Choose always the right one not the better one 2. If you think its right don't hesitate to do it! 3. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder 4. Learn to let go 5. don't waste your time: "STUDY HARD" 6. relationship ends if your loyalty's breaks! 7. always believe that you can 8. don't think twice!
*8 PLACES I WOULD LIKE TO GO/VISIT/SEE: 1. first on my list~ MANAOAG CHURCH 2. green belt 3. forth Santiago 4. Manila Bay 5. 100 islands 6. Bohol 7. Vigan! yeah~ 8. last on my list~ Puerto Prinsesa
*8 THINGS I CURRENTLY WANT/NEED: 1. find the Baller (need to bring it back to JV) nawawala eh.. 2. bring back my figure! 3. my nail art :( hope my tita will continue it.. 4. i wanna post something but i'm quite lazy 5. reborn my hair 6. i wanna call Glenn but i don't have enough load 7. i wanna watch the "HEAVEN IS SO REAL" 8. i wanna start our family video but its quite difficult for me to start the video bec. of my busy schedule
here is my a piece of me for the month of JANUARY :)
i like: this first month of 2010.. a month of our Uni-Days! 3-day holiday and fun.. so much excited for the incoming U-days. (its a bonding time for all my friendship buddies!) yehh!
i don't like: my busy schedule in school.. waah!!! full of activities-reporting-editing-assignments-etc.churva! T.T i hate school-days this month.. :( and next week my mom will go back in Hanoi Vietnam to continue her job. i will miss her for sure! :(
-- i also received this HUMANE award from ate SHERI AMOUR again..
I received this award last year, and that time I don't have enough time to pass this award.. i'ts too late i know to post this one..
so right now i intend not to pass this award to any one, since i also want to pass it back to ate SHERI.. who always deserve to receives an award like this again and again.. :)
itong awiting ito ay alay sayo sintonado man tong mga pangako sayo ang gusto ko lamang makasama kang tumanda
patatawanin kita pag hindi ka masaya bubuhatin kita pag rinayuma ka na oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda
ibibili ng balot pag mahina na ang tuhod ikukuha ng gamot pag sumakit ang likod oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda
sasamahan kahit kailan man mahigit kumulang ‘di mabilang tatlumpung araw sa isang buwan umabot man tayo sa three-thousand one
magmukha mang bruha pag gising sa umaga pupunasan ko pa ang muta mo sa mata oh kay sarap isipin kasama kang tumanda
paglalaba pa kita matapos mamalantsya kahit abut-abutin man ako ng pasma oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda
sasamahan kahit kailan man mahigit kumulang ‘di mabilang tatlumput araw sa isang buwan umabot man tayo sa three-thousand one
labs na labs parin kita kahit bungi-bungi ka na para sakin ikaw parin ang pinaka maganda oh kay sarap isiping kasama kang tumanda
at nangangako sayo’ng pag sinagot mo’ng oo iaalay sayo buong puso ko sumangayon ka lamang kasama kang tumanda
-- this song is taken in the movie "MY ONLY U!" starring Toni Gonzaga and Vhong Navarro.
GROW OLD WITH YOU lyrics
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad Carry you around when your arthritis is bad Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches Build you a fire if the furnace breaks Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I'll miss you Kiss you Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you Feed you Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink I could be the man who grows old with you I wanna grow old with you
-- The original song "GROW OLD WITH YOU" was taken in the movie..
"the wedding singer"
there is one scene in the movie that Adam Sandler wrote this song and dedicate this to Drew Barrymore inside the airplane going to Las Vegas, in front of many passengers. To stop the wedding of Drew Barrymore to her fiance Glenn.
here is the scene :)
i am so much in love with this song!! :) hope someday someone will also surprise me like Adam Sandler did.. not my boyfriend because he is not sweet ever since.. CORNY daw yung ganun.. huhu anyway.. I also love ADAM!! he is so CUTE! XD
name: EDLYN ORQUIOLA RETUCSAN; 18 years old; 4'10; 43 kg!^^
I am friendly kind of person, easy to be with, and sometimes I'm 100% CHILDISH but i can earn in my own way^^
